As I get older, and realize everything doesn’t play out like they do in the movies, I often feel like everything is just not okay. I don’t feel like my life is exactly horrible. I don’t feel like I’ve fell into a deep depression and can’t find a way out. I’ll leave that one to my therapists to figure out. I don’t feel “okay” As in, I graduated high school and didn’t go straight to college and live the dorm life like I had hoped, I’ve had a couple of failed tragic relationships and finding a job that pays all the bills and gives stability kind of not okay. All this can sometimes bring a person down and make an individual think and re-evaluate their life. Which is what I have been doing. A LOT of thinking.
I know thousands of other young adults feel this exact way too. Things just didn’t go as planned and you get to a point in your life where you are at a standstill and any move you make could make or break you. I guess that’s what life is. It’s figuring out how to get through it. Making the right decisions. I feel like life is just a huge game of chess – I don’t know how to play chess. I’ve made a few bad decisions in my life that if i would have stopped and thought it through, I could very much had been more than halfway done with college and on my way to a successful career. I still question. Even if i did take that route, would i have been satisfied? Would i feel “okay” then?
My point is, It’s OKAY to not have it all together. We’re all adults and learning how to fly through life. Were going to make more than a few mistakes. We’re going to lose friends, gain friends, quit jobs, find jobs, lose money, and win money. Life is full of surprises – as cliche as that sounds. After we stop and think about it, we do get a little sad over it. The things that COULD HAVE BEEN.Recently, I was belittled for venting about all my life choices and being “sad” about my life. It’s okay to vent and its okay to be sad. Not saying to be sad about it forever, but stop for a day, re-evaluate everything that’s happened and figure out how to make the future better for yourself. Remember, it’s okay to not feel Okay.